The mind of a Kink

  Okay so I am single, and I try to date, but these guys I have been meeting lately are not worth my time.

I am guilty of dating guys and sharing my heart and my time with them knowing that they are not good for me.

Why?

Loneliness, companionship, who knows maybe even retardation.

I met this one guy at my job (I bartend) he’s from Trinidad new to Chicago and just recently separated.

I love foreigners (don’t know why)

I have been going out with him the most, at first I was skeptical because he is not looking for a relationship…. who would be after a 17yr marriage.

I appreciated his honesty and decided to just have him as a friend.

It’s been going pretty good, we have fun together and I enjoy his company.

He dates other women, but he respects me when we are together and that’s cool.

We are not sexual with one another just enjoying each other, but what I don’t get is why he is so into trying to make me tell him I love him.

Why would I love him?

Yeah we have been around each other for a few months but I came into this friendship knowing that it was just that and I keep explaining that to him but he keeps telling me I know you love me.

I think maybe he is falling for me and needs some reassurance on his part.

Who knows?

I had kinda been in a dating dry spell since my last relationship ended. I had picked up some weight and just felt insecure.

Now I know I am pretty and I know any guy is lucky to be around me  but when I looked in the mirror I was not happy with what I saw.

I have lost about 10lbs in the last month and I got a new cool hairstyle and I feel so good and I can tell because the men have been on me.

I just have not really been meeting the kind of guy that I would want to be with.

I am 34 and I want to get married one day, but the way things have been going I don’t know if that will ever happen.

That bothers me sometimes.

I am not one of those women looking for a husband but I would like to at least meet and date some guys that are worth me falling for.

Well that’s it for today.

If you know what I am feeling or have ever felt this way let me know?

KINKY

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